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The Day is coming…..!

August 30, 2009

“For behold, the day is coming,
Burning like an oven,

And all the proud, yes, all who do wickedly will be stubble.
And the day which is coming shall burn them up,” Says the LORD of hosts,
“ That will leave them neither root nor branch.

But to you who fear My name
The Sun of Righteousness shall arise
With healing in His wings;
And you shall go out
And grow fat like stall-fed calves.
You shall trample the wicked,
For they shall be ashes under the soles of your feet

On the day that I do this,
Says the LORD of hosts.

“ Remember the Law of Moses, My servant,
Which I commanded him in Horeb for all Israel,
With the statutes and judgments.

Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet
Before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the LORD.
And he will turn
The hearts of the fathers to the children,
And the hearts of the children to their fathers,
Lest I come and strike the earth with a curse.”

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he said…

July 25, 2009
What kind of deal is it to get everything you want
but lose yourself?
What could you ever trade your soul for?
                                          Jesus
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Don’t close your eyes and stop your ears…

March 24, 2009
Save those who are being led to their death; 
rescue those who are about to be killed. 
If you say, “We don’t know anything about this,” 
God, who knows what’s in your mind, will notice.
He is watching you, and he will know. 
He will reward each person for what he has done.
                                                                           King Solomon
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Take care of your parents…

March 24, 2009
Listen to your father, who gave you life,
and do not forget your mother when she is old.
Learn the truth and never reject it.
Get wisdom, self-control, and understanding.
The father of a good child is very happy;
parents who have wise children are glad  because of them.
Make your father and mother happy;
give your mother a reason to be glad
                                                            King Solomon
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Giving to the rich…

March 23, 2009

Oppressing the poor to enrich oneself,
    and giving to the rich—both lead only to poverty.

                                                          King Solomon

 

 

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Good people, evil people…

March 21, 2009

  

The Lord is pleased with a good person,
       but he will punish anyone who plans evil.

                             King Solomon

 

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Names of Creator God…

March 21, 2009
  • Jehovah (the self-existent one: I AM)
  • Jehovah-jireh (the Lord will provide)
  • Jehovah-rapha (the Lord who heals)
  • Jehovah-nissi (the Lord our banner)
  • Jehovah-Shalom (the Lord our peace)
  • Jehovah-ra-ah (the Lord my shepherd)
  • Jehovah-tsidkenu (the Lord our righteousness)
  • Jehovah-shammad (the Lord is present)
  • Jehovah-Elohim (the Lord God)
  • Jehovah Sabaoth (the Lord of hosts)
  • Adonai (our master)
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    To AIG: regarding the 165mil bonus payout…

    March 20, 2009

     

    Dear AIG,

    In light of your recent bonus payout whereby you have justified your deplorable actions by saying you handed out said bonuses because you made promises that couldn’t be broken.  I would like to know since when did you think it was so important to keep promises? That being said there is something that you should know in your quest to justify your actions. This little bit of wisdom I want to share with you was written by the ancient prophet Jeremiah. The message is still good. Apply it to yourselves:

     

    “You cut and hurt a lot of people to get where you are.
    And yet you have the gall to say, ‘I’ve done nothing wrong.
       God doesn’t mind. He hasn’t punished me, has he?’
    Don’t look now, but judgment’s on the way,
       aimed at you who say, ‘I’ve done nothing wrong.’ “

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    There is a time for everything!

    March 19, 2009

       There is a time for everything,
           and everything on earth has its special season.
       There is a time to be born
           and a time to die. 
       There is a time to plant
           and a time to pull up plants.
       There is a time to kill
           and a time to heal.
       There is a time to destroy
           and a time to build.
       There is a time to cry
           and a time to laugh. 
       There is a time to be sad
           and a time to dance.
       There is a time to throw away stones
           and a time to gather them.
       There is a time to hug
           and a time not to hug.
       There is a time to look for something
           and a time to stop looking for it. 
       There is a time to keep things
           and a time to throw things away.
       There is a time to tear apart
           and a time to sew together.
       There is a time to be silent
           and a time to speak.
       There is a time to love
           and a time to hate.
       There is a time for war
           and a time for peace

    King Solomon

    Ecclesiastes 3
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    Fear God the creator of all things…

    March 13, 2009

    But regarding anything beyond this, dear friend, go easy. There’s no end to the publishing of books, and constant study wears you out so you’re no good for anything else. The last and final word is this:
       Fear God.
       Do what he tells you.

    And that’s it. Eventually God will bring everything that we do out into the open and judge it according to its hidden intent, whether it’s good or evil.

                                                                  King Solomon

     

    Ecclesiastes 12:12-14  

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    Strange Women

    March 5, 2009

    Proverbs 5

    Avoid Seduction

     1 My son, pay attention to my wisdom;
        listen closely to my understanding

        2 so that [you] may maintain discretion
        and your lips safeguard knowledge.

        3 Though the lips of the forbidden woman drip honey
        and her words are  smoother than oil,

        4 in the end she’s as bitter as wormwood 
        and as sharp as a double-edged sword.

        5 Her feet go down to death;
        her steps head straight for Sheol.

        6 She doesn’t consider the path of life;
        she doesn’t know that her ways are unstable.

        7 So now, [my] sons, listen to me,
        and don’t turn away from the words of my mouth.

        8 Keep your way far from her.
        Don’t go near the door of her house.

        9 Otherwise, you will give up your vitality to others
        and your years to someone cruel;

        10 strangers will drain your resources,
        and your earnings will end up in a foreigner’s house.

        11 At the end of your life, you will lament
        when your physical body has been consumed,

        12 and you will say, “How I hated discipline,
        and how my heart despised correction.

        13 I didn’t obey my teachers
        or listen closely  to my mentors.

        14 I was on the verge of complete ruin
        before the entire community.”

       

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     15 Drink water from your own cistern,
        water flowing from your own well.

        16 Should your springs flow in the streets,
        streams of water in the public squares?

        17 They should be for you alone
        and not for you [to share] with strangers.

        18 Let your fountain be blessed,
        and take pleasure in the wife of your youth.

        19 A loving doe, a graceful fawn—
        let her breasts always satisfy you; 
        be lost in her love forever.

        20 Why, my son, would you be infatuated
        with a forbidden woman
        or embrace the breast of a stranger?

        21 For a man’s ways are before the LORD‘s eyes, 
        and He considers all his paths.

        22 A wicked man’s iniquities entrap him; 
        he is entangled in the ropes of his own sin.

        23 He will die because there is no instruction, 
        and be lost because of his great stupidity

           King Solomon

     

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    Don’t withold good….

    March 4, 2009
    Proverbs 3:27-35

    When it is in your power, [a]
        don’t withhold good (A) from the one to whom it is due.

        28 Don’t say to your neighbor, “Go away! Come back later.
        I’ll give it tomorrow”—when it is there with you. (B)

        29 Don’t plan any harm against your neighbor, (C)
        for he trusts you and lives near you.

        30 Don’t accuse anyone without cause, (D)
        when he has done you no harm.

        31 Don’t envy a violent man (E)
        or choose any of his ways;

        32 for the devious are detestable to the LORD,
        but He is a friend [b] to the upright. (F)

        33 The LORD‘s curse is on the household of the wicked, (G)
        but He blesses the home of the righteous;

        34 He mocks those who mock,
        but gives grace to the humble. (H)

        35 The wise will inherit honor,
        but He holds up fools to dishonor. [c]

                                                            King Solomon

    Footnotes:
    1. Proverbs 3:27 Lit in the power of your hands
    2. Proverbs 3:32 Or confidential counsel
    3. Proverbs 3:35 Or but haughty fools dishonor, or but fools exalt dishonor

    Cross references:
    1. Proverbs 3:27 : Gl 6:10;
    2. Proverbs 3:28 : Lv 19:13; Dt 24:15;
    3. Proverbs 3:29 : Pr 6:14; 14:22;
    4. Proverbs 3:30 : Pr 24:28; Rm 12:18;
    5. Proverbs 3:31 : Ps 37:1; Pr 23:17; 24:1;, 19;
    6. Proverbs 3:32 : Ps 25:14; Pr 11:20; 12:22; 15:8-9;
    7. Proverbs 3:33 : Zch 5:3-4; Mal 2:2;
    8. Proverbs 3:34 : Jms 4:6; 1Pt 5:5;

     

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    Heavy stone, weighty sand, and a fools wrath.

    February 28, 2009

    A stone is heavy, and the sand weighty; but a fool’s wrath is heavier than them both.

                                                                                                                        Proverbs 27:3

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    Knowledge

    February 23, 2009

    He that hath knowledge spareth his words and a man of understanding is of an excellent spirit. Proverbs 17:27

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    poor man’s wisdom…

    November 24, 2008

    Now there was a poor but wise man in the town who used his wisdom to save his town. But later on, everyone forgot about him. I still think wisdom is better than strength. But those people forgot about the poor man’s wisdom and stopped listening to what he said.

    The quiet words of a wise person are better 
    than the shouts of a foolish ruler.

    Ecclesiastes 9:15-17

    New Century Version (NCV)The Holy Bible, New Century Version®. Copyright © 2005 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.

     

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    Time and chance…..

    November 14, 2008

    I returned and saw under the sun that—

          The race is not to the swift,
          Nor the battle to the strong,
          Nor bread to the wise,
          Nor riches to men of understanding,
          Nor favor to men of skill;
          But time and chance happen to them all.

    King Solomon

    Eccleciastes 9:11

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    …hearts full of evil

    November 8, 2008

    I’ve been  thinking about the ugliness that I have seen this week since the historic event that took place November 4  here in  the United States of America.  These thoughts have sometimes kept me up at night.  Barack Obama has been elected as our new president.  I have heard terrible things being said about a man who has not yet taken office.  It has caused my heart to ache to see the bigotry that had been hidden and cloaked in garments of niceness and tolerance. Now the big event has uncovered the true nature of some.  Hate speak abounds.  Nothing is held back.  The  feelings of the heart are being exposed.  It has made me sick.   I searched for answers in the Holy scriptures.  King Solomon offered an explanation in the 9th book of Ecclesiastes verse 3.  This explanation has calmed my spirit and brought understanding.

    “This is an evil among all things that are done under the sun, that there is one event unto all:  yea, also the heart of the sons of men is full of evil, and madness is in their heart while they live, and after that they go to the dead.”

    Hearts full of evil and madness. The only explanation that has brought definition to what I have seen and heard. I want to be a child of God.  I want my heart to be filled with love and understanding.  Creator God please help me.

    Just thinking……….

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    God the creator

    November 6, 2008

     

    Daniel answered and said: 

    Blessed be the name of God forever and ever,
    For wisdom and might are His. 
    And He changes the times and the seasons;
    He removes kings and raises up kings;
    He gives wisdom to the wise
    And knowledge to those who have understanding. 
    He reveals deep and secret things;
    He knows what is in the darkness,
    And light dwells with Him.

    Daniel 2:20-22
    NKJV

     

     

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    A good woman

    November 1, 2008
    Proverbs 31
    These are the words of King Lemuel, the message his mother taught him:
     “My son, I gave birth to you.
           You are the son I prayed for.
    Don’t waste your strength on women
           or your time on those who ruin kings. 
    “Kings should not drink wine, Lemuel,
           and rulers should not desire beer. 
    If they drink, they might forget the law
           and keep the needy from getting their rights.
    Give beer to people who are dying
           and wine to those who are sad.
    Let them drink and forget their need
           and remember their misery no more. 
    “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves; defend the rights of all those who have nothing. 
    Speak up and judge fairly, and defend the rights of the poor and needy.”
    The Good Wife
    It is hard to find a good wife,
           because she is worth more than rubies.
    Her husband trusts her completely.
           With her, he has everything he needs.
    She does him good and not harm
           for as long as she lives.
    She looks for wool and flax
           and likes to work with her hands.
    She is like a trader’s ship,
           bringing food from far away.
    She gets up while it is still dark
           and prepares food for her family
           and feeds her servant girls.
    She inspects a field and buys it.
           With money she earned, she plants a vineyard.
    She does her work with energy,
           and her arms are strong.
    She knows that what she makes is good.
           Her lamp burns late into the night.
    She makes thread with her hands
           and weaves her own cloth.
    She welcomes the poor
           and helps the needy.
    She does not worry about her family when it snows,
    because they all have fine clothes to keep them warm.
    She makes coverings for herself;
    her clothes are made of linen and other expensive material.
    Her husband is known at the city meetings,
    where he makes decisions as one of the leaders of the land.
    She makes linen clothes and sells them
    and provides belts to the merchants.
     She is strong and is respected by the people.
           She looks forward to the future with joy.
     She speaks wise words
           and teaches others to be kind.
     She watches over her family
           and never wastes her time.
     Her children speak well of her.
           Her husband also praises her,
     saying, “There are many fine women,
           but you are better than all of them.”
     Charm can fool you, and beauty can trick you,
           but a woman who respects the Lord should be praised. 
    Give her the reward she has earned;
           she should be praised in public for what she has done.
     
     
     

    New Century Version (NCV)The Holy Bible, New Century Version®. Copyright © 2005 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.

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    Wise words

    October 31, 2008

    Proverbs 30

    These are the words of Agur son of Jakeh.

    This is his message to Ithiel and Ucal: 
           I am the most stupid person there is,
           and I have no understanding.
    I have not learned to be wise,
           and I don’t know much about God, the Holy One.
    Who has gone up to heaven and come back down? 
           Who can hold the wind in his hand? 
    Who can gather up the waters in his coat?
           Who has set in place the ends of the earth? 
    What is his name or his son’s name?
           Tell me, if you know! 

    Every word of God is true. 
           He guards those who come to him for safety. 
    Do not add to his words, 
           or he will correct you and prove you are a liar. 

    I ask two things from you, Lord. 
           Don’t refuse me before I die.    
    Keep me from lying and being dishonest. 
           And don’t make me either rich or poor; 
           just give me enough food for each day.
    If I have too much, I might reject you 
           and say, ‘I don’t know the Lord.’ 
    If I am poor, I might steal 
           and disgrace the name of my God. 

    Do not say bad things about servants to their masters,
           or they will curse you, and you will suffer for it. 

    Some people curse their fathers
           and do not bless their mothers. 
    Some people think they are pure,
           but they are not really free from evil.
    Some people have such a proud look!
           They look down on others.
    Some people have teeth like swords;
           their jaws seem full of knives. 
    They want to remove the poor from the earth
           and the needy from the land. 

    Greed has two daughters
           named ‘Give’ and ‘Give.’ 
    There are three things that are never satisfied,
           really four that never say, ‘I’ve had enough!’: 
           the cemetery, the childless mother,
           the land that never gets enough rain,
           and fire that never says, ‘I’ve had enough!’ 

    If you make fun of your father
           and refuse to obey your mother, 
    the birds of the valley will peck out your eyes,
           and the vultures will eat them. 

    There are three things that are too hard for me,
           really four I don’t understand: 
    the way an eagle flies in the sky,
           the way a snake slides over a rock, 
    the way a ship sails on the sea,
           and the way a man and a woman fall in love. 

    This is the way of a woman who takes part in adultery:
           She acts as if she had eaten and washed her face;
           she says, ‘I haven’t done anything wrong.’ 

    There are three things that make the earth tremble,
           really four it cannot stand: 
    a servant who becomes a king,
           a foolish person who has plenty to eat,
    a hated woman who gets married,
           and a maid who replaces her mistress. 

    There are four things on earth that are small,
           but they are very wise: 
    Ants are not very strong,
           but they store up food in the summer.
    Rock badgers are not very powerful,
           but they can live among the rocks.
    Locusts have no king,
           but they all go forward in formation.
    Lizards can be caught in the hand,
           but they are found even in kings’ palaces. 

    There are three things that strut proudly,
           really four that walk as if they were important: 
    a lion, the proudest animal,
           which is strong and runs from nothing,
    a rooster, a male goat,
           and a king when his army is around him. 

    If you have been foolish and proud,
           or if you have planned evil, shut your mouth. 
    Just as stirring milk makes butter,
           and twisting noses makes them bleed,
           so stirring up anger causes trouble.”

     

    New Century Version (NCV)The Holy Bible, New Century Version®. Copyright © 2005 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.
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    Don’t envy evil people….

    October 26, 2008
     Don’t envy evil people
           or try to be friends with them.
    Their minds are always planning violence,
           and they always talk about making trouble.
     It takes wisdom to have a good family,
           and it takes understanding to make it strong.
    It takes knowledge to fill a home
           with rare and beautiful treasures.
     Wise people have great power,
           and those with knowledge have great strength.
     So you need advice when you go to war.
           If you have lots of good advice, you will win.
     Foolish people cannot understand wisdom.
           They have nothing to say in a discussion.
     Whoever makes evil plans
           will be known as a troublemaker.
     Making foolish plans is sinful,
           and making fun of wisdom is hateful.
    If you give up when trouble comes,
           it shows that you are weak.
    Save those who are being led to their death;
           rescue those who are about to be killed.
    If you say, “We don’t know anything about this,”
           God, who knows what’s in your mind, will notice.
        He is watching you, and he will know.
           He will reward each person for what he has done.
     My child, eat honey because it is good.
           Honey from the honeycomb tastes sweet.
    In the same way, wisdom is pleasing to you.
           If you find it, you have hope for the future,
           and your wishes will come true.
     Don’t be wicked and attack a good family’s house;
           don’t rob the place where they live.
     Even though good people may be bothered by trouble seven times, they are never defeated,
           but the wicked are overwhelmed by trouble.
     Don’t be happy when your enemy is defeated;
           don’t be glad when he is overwhelmed.
     The Lord will notice and be displeased.
           He may not be angry with them anymore.
     Don’t envy evil people,
           and don’t be jealous of the wicked.
     An evil person has nothing to hope for;
           the wicked will die like a flame that is put out.
     My child, respect the Lord and the king.
           Don’t join those people who refuse to obey them.
     The Lord and the king will quickly destroy such people.
           Those two can cause great disaster!
    More Words of Wisdom
    These are also sayings of the wise:
        It is not good to take sides when you are the judge.
    Don’t tell the wicked that they are innocent;
           people will curse you, and nations will hate you.
     But things will go well if you punish the guilty,
           and you will receive rich blessings.
     An honest answer is as pleasing
           as a kiss on the lips.
     First, finish your outside work
           and prepare your fields.
           After that, you can build your house.
     Don’t testify against your neighbor for no good reason.
           Don’t say things that are false.
     Don’t say, “I’ll get even;
           I’ll do to him what he did to me.”
     I passed by a lazy person’s field
           and by the vineyard of someone with no sense.
     Thorns had grown up everywhere.
           The ground was covered with weeds,
           and the stone walls had fallen down.
     I thought about what I had seen;
           I learned this lesson from what I saw.
     You sleep a little; you take a nap.
           You fold your hands and lie down to rest.
     Soon you will be as poor as if you had been robbed;
           you will have as little as if you had been held up.
    Proverbs 24
    New Century Version (NCV)The Holy Bible, New Century Version®. Copyright © 2005 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.
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    If you sit down to eat with a ruler…

    October 22, 2008
    If you sit down to eat with a ruler,
           notice the food that is in front of you. 
    Control yourself
           if you have a big appetite.
    Don’t be greedy for his fine foods,
           because that food might be a trick. 

    Don’t wear yourself out trying to get rich;
           be wise enough to control yourself. 
    Wealth can vanish in the wink of an eye.
           It can seem to grow wings
           and fly away like an eagle. 

    Don’t eat the food of selfish people;
           don’t be greedy for their fine foods. 
    Selfish people are always worrying
           about how much the food costs.
    They tell you, “Eat and drink,”
           but they don’t really mean it.
    You will throw up the little you have eaten,
           and you will have wasted your kind words. 

    Don’t speak to fools;
           they will only ignore your wise words. 

    Don’t move an old stone that marks a border,
           and don’t take fields that belong to orphans. 
    God, their defender, is strong;
           he will take their side against you. 

    Remember what you are taught,
           and listen carefully to words of knowledge. 

    Don’t fail to punish children.
           If you spank them, they won’t die. 
    If you spank them,
           you will save them from death. 

    My child, if you are wise,
           then I will be happy. 
    I will be so pleased
           if you speak what is right. 

    Don’t envy sinners,
           but always respect the Lord. 
    Then you will have hope for the future,
           and your wishes will come true. 

    Listen, my child, and be wise.
           Keep your mind on what is right. 
    Don’t drink too much wine
           or eat too much food.
    Those who drink and eat too much become poor.
           They sleep too much and end up wearing rags. 

    Listen to your father, who gave you life,
           and do not forget your mother when she is old. 
    Learn the truth and never reject it.
           Get wisdom, self-control, and understanding.
    The father of a good child is very happy;
           parents who have wise children are glad because of them.
    Make your father and mother happy;
           give your mother a reason to be glad. 

    My son, pay attention to me,
           and watch closely what I do. 
    A prostitute is as dangerous as a deep pit,
           and an unfaithful wife is like a narrow well.
    They ambush you like robbers
           and cause many men to be unfaithful to their wives.

    Who has trouble? Who has pain?
           Who fights? Who complains?
    Who has unnecessary bruises?
           Who has bloodshot eyes?
    It is people who drink too much wine,
           who try out all different kinds of strong drinks.
    Don’t stare at the wine when it is red,
           when it sparkles in the cup,
           when it goes down smoothly.
    Later it bites like a snake
           with poison in its fangs.
    Your eyes will see strange sights,
           and your mind will be confused.
    You will feel dizzy as if you’re in a storm on the ocean,

           as if you’re on top of a ship’s sails.
    You will think, “They hit me, but I’m not hurt.
           They beat me up, but I don’t remember it.
    I wish I could wake up.
           Then I would get another drink.” 
    .
    .
    Proverbs 23(New Century Version) 
    New Century Version (NCV)The Holy Bible, New Century Version®. Copyright © 2005 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.

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    Wisdom

    October 4, 2008

    Wisdom cries without; she utters her voice in the streets:  She cries in the chief place of concourse, in the opening of the gates; in the city she utters her words saying, 

    How long , you simple ones, will you love simplicity? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge?

    Turn you at my reproof:  behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you.

    Because I have called and you refused; I have stretched out my hand and no man regarded:  But you have set at nought all my counsel, and would non of my reproof:   I will also laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear comes upon you

    Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer, they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me:  For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the Lord:  They would none of my counsel; they despised all my reproof.

    Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices;

    For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them,

    But whoever pays attention to me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil

    King Solomon/Proverb 1 KJV 

    Translated  into modern English:

    Wisdom is like a woman shouting in the street; she raises her voice in the city squares. 

     She cries out in the noisy street and shouts at the city gates: “You fools, how long will you be foolish? How long will you make fun of wisdom and hate knowledge?

    If only you had listened when I corrected you, I would have told you what’s in my heart; I would have told you what I am thinking. 

    I called, but you refused to listen; I held out my hand, but you paid no attention.  You did not follow my advice and did not listen when I corrected you. 

    So I will laugh when you are in trouble. I will make fun when disaster strikes you, when disaster comes over you like a storm, when trouble strikes you like a whirlwind, when pain and trouble overwhelm you.  

    “Then you will call to me, but I will not answer. You will look for me, but you will not find me. 

     It is because you rejected knowledge and did not choose to respect the Lord.  You did not accept my advice, and you rejected my correction.  So you will get what you deserve; you will get what you planned for others.  

    Fools will die because they refuse to listen; they will be destroyed because they do not care.  But those who listen to me will live in safety and be at peace, without fear of injury.”

    King Solomon/Proverb 1 NCV

               

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    Grace and Love

    September 27, 2008

     

    The great Creator of all gave us everything He had to save us from this present evil world. He gave us His only son, and His son was more then willing to come from a beautiful place to this raggedy place to show that it is possible to be light in darkness.  And then this son; His only son, gave up his life to save mine.  I have not given Him anything to receive this grace and love but it is there just the same whether I want it or not.

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    Thinking about things

    September 27, 2008

    I am thinking about many things, mainly about what I want to spin in this blog.  This blog will include my deepest thoughts.  The things that brood deep in the back of my mind.  The things that sleepless nights are made of. The things that have no answer except from the One who created it all.  Deep things sometimes too painful to mention out loud. 

    And so I spin.